Traumatic Experiences I went through as a kid, teen, and young adult that caused my DID

So to start off I am writing a trigger warning to those with the disorder meaning some material will or could trigger you to have flashbacks so if you aren’t in therapy now or in a good headspace with your system please stop reading now.

I have very little memory of my childhood though most are fond. I was adopted at birth by two loving parents who lived in Connecticut. I had a lot of abandonment issues and when I did start memory work a lot of those issues came to light.

First being I was neglected multiple times by a babysitter at age 2. Second molested by someone I believe a female at ages 4 and 6 though I don’t remember all details. Third, I was I was constantly sent to psychiatric hospitals from age 2 on because of my weird behaviors and a multitude of diagnosises attached to me by age 11 when my sister who was the only one I felt a close bond with died in an accidental overdose. I was always bullied of and made fun of for as long as I remember and I acted out a lot to get my parents attention because they both worked which I understood logically but emotionally I felt abandoned. When I was 14 or 15 I was sent to Department of Juvenile Justice in SC for being encouragable and molested in there and hooked on a bunch of narcotics for my physical conditions that started to develop. I had my aunt and uncle die whom I loved die from cancer when I was 17. And during my teen years I was on Grindr a gay dating app hooking up underage with older men because my father was at work and my mom verbally and emotionally tormented me as well as kids in my school so I used these men who I now realized molested me over and over again. When I was 16 my hair fell out and I found out I had juevanile Rheumotoid. Arthritis along with a gamet of other autoimmune diseases. Once I graduated high school I went to college and lived in a dorm style apartment alone and hosted lots of parties to drown out the flashbacks depression and anxiety that plagued me and of course slept around. I also got hooked on heroin since it was cheaper than my painkillers at that time or my alter Mimi took hold of body and mind for a couple of years. I went to rehab got clean would relapse wouldn’t know or remember how and think it was the drugs. My best friends Christine and Victoria left me then as friends because of my spiral and my bestie Carly died.  4 years ago I had been receiving help with relapsing and also counseling and psychiatry but my real problem wasn’t drugs it was the constant flashbacks, panic attacks, depression, and amnesia that’s plagued me for years drugs were my escape. It’s been almost a year and a half since my last relapse thank god. I realized as I did self exploration and journaling and found myself through that that NA/AA were only applicable when Mimi was in control of my body so I only go when she has control and am aware of her. I was diagnosed with DID almost 2 years ago in Ohio and started therapy there moved back to SC about 7 months ago to get back in school, on disability, and back with family and friends though my parents have just sold their house and are moving to Florida. So currently I am in a men’s shelter in Myrtle Beach waiting for 4-6 months for my disability claim to go through the courts then am getting it transferred with me to Colorado so I can then go on campus to Narupa University instead of online for there contemplative psychology program and to be closer to my half sister Nora.